Saturday, Feb. 01, 2003 - 1:45 p.m.
I have always promised myself I would never become one of "those people." That I would never fall for another person completely. That if, by chance, somebody chipped away at my emotional wall with enough effort, that I would still display my affection with some reservation. That I couldn't possibly contemplate the idea of having true feelings for another person after a handful of online conversations and a two and a half hour late night phone call.
There is quite a stigma attached to the online relationship, isn't there? Even though, or rather especially as, the Internet has become such a huge part of our world, getting to know somebody via online means still has a subversive tone. Usually I'd be the first to dismiss any online encounter as a frivolous experience. How can you possibly connect with a person having never heard their voice in person or been close enough to feel their touch?
Well, I certainly can't explain it. Logic tells me that I'm being completely unreasonable. But you know what? I've let logic dictate my life too often over the years. It's high time I made a completely irrational decision dictated only by what I'm feeling rather than what I'm thinking.
Thus, a possible visit is in the works for the near future. It is entirely possible that in the next couple of weeks, the person I have been thinking of every night lately will be sitting in my apartment, next to me at a restaurant, or taking a walk with me downtown.
I know many people will tell me that this isn't a good idea. There was a time when I would listen to them unquestionably. But now, I only have my heart to listen to.
This is me, taking a leap into irrationality.
